Thursday, December 29, 2005
Agony Of Love
The Long Awaited Sequel for " Crossroad Of Love "
Agony Of Love
Chapter 1: Our separation
Shortly after we reached, we went our separate ways. But we arranged to meet up once we are settled in our hotel. Later that night, we met up at a roadside café.
I went there early as I really missed him, so much till I want to watch him walk into the café. Finally he arrived, I was adjusting my dress when he walked in. I panicked and almost ripped my dress.
Bemused, he simply laughed and shook his head. He really looked different now. The joyful smile is replaced by a friendly but fake looking smile. His dressing seems to be different from before. No more the relaxed and cool attitude, but a businessman.
A few strands of white hair decorated his head, together with the lines on his forehead, Timothy really aged alot.
Noticing I’m staring at him, he laughed.
“ Yah I’ve changed after you…. Nevermind, it’s all in the past “ He looked away.
My heart nearly break into a million pieces when I heard his words. Really, I never know that my indecisiveness resulted in him to changed so much. Fighting back my tears, I smiled meekly and ate my meal.
Throughout the dinner, we laughed and joked. Really reminds me of the good old times we had. But alas it’s just a short lived joy. Time passed so quickly just when you are having fun. He offered to send me back to the hotel, but I declined. I really want to be alone for the time being.
As Timothy turned around and walk away, my heart really ached for him. But I dare not run over and hug him. I really do wish to hug him but I can’t bring myself to. Confusion and sadness overcame me as I dragged my feet towards my hotel.
Exhausted, I simply jump straight into bed and sleep.
That night, I dreamt about him. But the reality that we are separated really hurts me alot.
“ Tears flow down like a flowing river,
My heart aches for the shadow by the riverbanks.
Words alone can’t describe my feelings,
Sadly I longed for your company “
To be continued
Chapter 2: Things go awry
As I tried to settled down in my new environment, I still can’t help but thinking of Timothy.
Is Fate playing a trick on me and guiding Timothy back into my open arms? The thoughts kept lingering in my mind. Timothy and myself together on a faraway land from home, no friends to teased, no family to nag. Just the 2 of us only, how nice will it be?
Been quite a few days since we meet up at the café, Timothy have yet to contact me again. I wonder how is he coping? Heartless maggot, didn’t even make the effort to show some concerns on my well- being. Bleah~! I’m going to get myself more busy and more occupied so as to forget bout him.
Day goes by in a flash. Weeks zoom past in awhile and month end with a bang. It’s almost a year since I left the bright sunny shores of Singapore and embarked on the working trip. And it’s almost a year since I last met Timothy, even though we did send each other some emails but the physical presence really lacked thereof.
One day while shopping for my groceries, I saw someone whom looked like Timothy. Eagerly I walk faster and trying my best to get his attention. But someone appeared beside him and hold his hand. To my surprised it’s really Timothy and beside him is a really gorgeous looking girl.
My heart sank as I try to fought back my tears and walk away quickly. As I walk back towards my hotel, the happy memories of the time I spent with Timothy kept flooding my vision. The sweet sound of him calling me Jaslin Darling seems to be so vague now. All hopes I had of getting back to him fell apart, tears kept flowing down my cheeks as I stood infront of my hotel door and cry.
Struggling to open the door with my keys, I somehow managed to get into the room and stood infront of the balcony window. Looking out, I could see the bright lights of the street bustling with life. Somehow it just feel so empty now in my heart, a part of me simply died and vanished without a trace.
“ Standing alone in a faraway land,
seeking warmth and comfort.
Alas its ain’t gonna be,
away in this cold hard land. “
Chapter 3: My fault
The memories of Timothy and that gal kept flooding back. I simply can’t concentrate on my work and I’m really in a bad shape and pathetic situation.
Just so happened that a colleague of mine, Jimmy been showering me with a lot of attention and concern. No matter how much I tried to chase him away, Jimmy always kept coming back. Coupled with the fact that Timothy has another woman beside him, the thoughts of me accepting Jimmy seems to be the only way out. But somehow I can’t do it, my heart is still with Timothy. Matters of the heart seems to be very vague for me now.
One day, I received a bouquet of flowers on my desk. Surprised, I found a note in it.
“ As long there are flowers on your desk, I will be thinking of you. “
Without having second thoughts, I pick up the bouquet of flowers and threw it away. But as when I got back to my desk, another bouquet is back on desk.
This time round, I didn’t threw it away. I stormed to Jimmy’s desk and flung the bouquet of flowers at him.
“ Stop your nonsense, I’m already attached. “ I literally scream at him.
With that outburst, I went back to my desk. Just couldn’t hold back my tears as I kept crying. Jimmy came over and apologised but I refused to talk to him.
Really confused now, not really sure what’s going on my mind as I tried to concentrate on my work. Suddenly a loud bang and some vulgar verbal expletives shot across the office. As I turned to look, I saw Jimmy walking furiously out of the office door.
Curious, I went to ask my colleagues what happened. It turned out that Jimmy was badly affected by my outburst and couldn’t concentrate on his job, and he lose a multi-million deal which is very important to the company.
I became dumbfounded, totally lost for words. I tried to call Jimmy but he didn’t switch on his handphone. After work, I decided to go and look for him to apologised. Not knowing where to search, I wandered around aimlessly
A thought suddenly flashed across my mind.
“ If really fated for me to find him despite not knowing where he is, I will accept him if he ask me again. “
To be continue….
Chapter 4: A big mistake
Just as I was about to leave, I saw him sitting by the park bench feeding the pigeons. As I stood infront of him, I saw tears streaming down his cheeks. Oh my, this is the first time I have ever seen a grown up guy crying infront of me.
As Jimmy looked up, he literally frozed. Dumbfounded, he took out his handkerchief and wipe his face and stood up to leave. I didn’t know what went through my mind but I simply grab and hug him tightly.
Just at that instant, thoughts of Timothy came flooding back into my mind and I instinctively push Jimmy and walk away. Jimmy suddenly grab me and tried to kiss me. As I struggled against his grip, Jimmy turned violent and slapped me.
“ Jimmy! What the hell are you trying to do to me? “ I screamed at him.
“ Can’t you tell? I’m gonna make you mine. “ Jimmy replied with a smirk.
The thought I had earlier on simply vanished into thin air as I’m filled with rage for what this savage beast is trying to do to me. Not knowing what I did, I used all my strength and push Jimmy away again and as he fell, I gave his groin area a hard kick and I could see the agony in his eyes as he scream in pain.
“ Don’t let me see you again, otherwise you won’t be celebrating father’s day anymore. “ I shout at him before walking off hurriedly.
And to think I was planning to give him a chance, yet he treats me in this manner. That does it, I’m going to quit and return to Singapore. No point carrying on with the job when Jimmy is around.
The next day I submit my resignation letter and left the company. At the lobby, Jimmy was waiting for me. But I walk away, no point listening to what he’s going to tell me.
Finally I can go home where I truly belong, but I will have to do everything all over again.
Life is going to be so tough but it’s better to be home I guess. But there’s something I must do before I go back. Not sure if I should do it but I really want to have an answer.
To be continue
Chapter 5 : My New Beginning
Tried finding Timothy but the memories of him with that gal really haunts me. If only things had remained the same, the gal beside him would have been me. Nevertheless as I continue to pack my clothings into my luggage bag, I heard my handphone ringing.
“ Hello? “ I asked.
“ Hey Jaslin, heard you are going back to Singapore? “ A famillar voice replied.
It took me quite awhile before I realised who’s the caller is.
“ Timothy! “ I shout over the phone.
“ Hey Hey, there’s no need to shout so loud over the phone. “ Timothy answered.
The voice, the sweet sound of his voice floods my memory as memories of the past came crashing down on me. As I struggled to maintain my composure, my weakened fortitude of strength simply succumb into a frail and flabbergasted version of me. I totally lost it and broke down over the phone.
After a short while, I heard knocking on the door. As I struggled to walk over and open it, I simply couldn’t believed my eyes. At the door is Timothy with a gigantic bouquet of my favourite flowers.
All hell break loose as I rushed over and hug him, almost tripping over my own stuffs as my only thoughts is to be with him and nothing else matters.
Afterwhich we sat down and I ask him about that gal whom I saw, he laughed and said it’s his employer’s daughter and she got a huge crush on him. Silly me, to think I was so hurt and depressed over this matter.
Smiling, Timothy suddenly stood up and got down onto his knee. As he held on to the bouquet of flowers, I simply couldn’t breathe as I can’t anticipate what might happened next.
“ Jaslin, the stars in the moonlit night shall be my witness. As long as my heart is pumping, my love for you will never ceased to stop. “ Timothy declared with his heart.
Deeply touched, I simply nod my head and accept him once again with my heart. All the mistakes that are done in the past shall be henceforth be gone into history.
With Timothy by my side, I’m looking forward to go back to Singapore and recapture all the happy memories we had.
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