Thursday, October 20, 2005
Story of " The Pain "
Chapter 1 : The day we met.
“ Hi, intro? “
The most common question asked in IRC. Nevertheless I decide to reply to the person.
Funny, how come people will still want me to intro when I’m not even looking to chat up with anyone online.
Eh? A gal ? I thought to myself. Odd leh… Hahhahahaha
So that’s when I got to know her, Annie..
“ Ring… Ring Ring… my handphone rang… I answered and got a shock.
“ Hi, I’m Annie, yah just wanted to informed you that I will be meeting you tomorrow for the gathering. “
That voice… really caused me to lose concentration… A heavenly voice talking to me over the phone… Very interesting indeed. Wonders how she looks like….
But then… nice voice doesn’t mean very good looking… God is very fair in this area.. Noone is perfect.
And I supposed that’s true. Else if everyone is so perfect, maybe the world will be a better place now.
As I waited for her at the mrt station, I noticed someone walking towards me. That smile on her face lit up the surroundings. Wow…
“ Are you Anthony ? “ That gal asked….
“ So you must be Annie ? “ I replied..
“ Yah, nice to meet u finally “ She smiled….
“ Yah, finally putting a face to a nick is awesome. “ I answered back with a smile.
And thus we hopped onto a cab and head towards the gathering…..
Chapter 2 : The gathering
Along the way, I felt it’s quite awkard to sit beside a stranger whom I barely knew. But while we didn’t talk, we kept looking at each other and smiled…
Weird right? Later I found out that she’s also not sure what to talk thus she’s just waiting for me to start the conversation.
At the gathering I wanted to find my friends but she held my hands and pull me to sit beside her. So can’t be helped, I got to sit beside her for 2 hours. Felt very odd sitting beside her. But nevertheless I brush off that feeling and concentrate on the talk.
Soon after the talk is finished, I decided to go home early. I waved good bye to her and went home. On the way home, she sms me “ Thanks for accompany me, sorry I didn’t talk much to you just now “
Weird… We don’t really have anything to talk about just now.
Nevertheless I never reply her as my mind is sleepy after enduring a day’s work and 2hrs of non-stop talk.
“ Ring Ring…. “ My hp rang….
“ Eh ? “ I looked at my hp puzzled….
It’s her, how come she call me ? Weird……
“ Hello, are u okay ? “ She asked….
“ Okay ah, why ? “ I answered….
“ Why you never reply me ? “ She enquired…..
“ Well, I don’t know what to reply, so I didn’t.” I answered back.
With that she wish me good night and tell me she will call me back later when she reach home….
Abit weird but heck… I’m sleepy…..
Chapter 3: The Beginning
“ Hey, why you so bad ah ? “ She replied when I answered the phone with a hello.
“ Huh? What do you mean by bad ? “ I answered.
As she rattled on her misgivings on my heck care attitude, I’m baffled to the extent that I didn’t even know what she meant by me being so bad.
“ If you treat every girls the same as how you treated me, how will you be able to get a girlfriend? “ She demanded an answer on the spot.
“ I’m not even interested in finding a girlfriend. “ I replied non-chalantly….
“ What ? “ You sure ? She enquired…
“ Yes “ I replied impatiently…..
With that she remained silent for quite a long time. Afterwhich with a simple good night she hung up the phone.
Sometimes I really wonder why her reaction is so strange. Nevertheless I brushed off this thought and went to sleep.
But I can’t sleep, as I tossed around on my bead, I felt that something is amiss. Looking at the clock, the time is 2am in the morning. Really can’t sleep as her reaction is still running a marathon on my thoughts, everything of her just kept flashing back towards my memories. I find it weird that I can still remember her looks and everything she said.
Suddenly my handphone had a sms coming in. I went to check whom is the sender. It’s her.
“ Hey you sleeping ? “ Read the message.
“ Nope. “ I replied…
“ Eh? How come so late havn’t sleep? “ She replied…
“ Thinking of you. “
With that last sms, she stopped replying and I drift off to sleep….
Chapter 4: The Next Day
The next morning I received a sms from her.
It reads, “ Good morning, have you woke up? Sorry for not replying your last sms as I drifted off to sleep. Well, your sms sounds kinda weird but it’s ok. Thinking of you now actually. Gosh I’m blushing now. Cya later online. “
Sounds weirder isn’t it? Her sms left me flabbergasted the whole day. But heck, I got better things to do than to worry about her sms.
Is it me or just my imagination? Am I really thinking of her all the time and she’s doing likewise? Negatively I brushed off this feeling as I’m in no mood to think of worthless stuffs.
Arghh.. I’m feeling frustrated over such a non important issue.
“ Beep, Beep. “ My hp rang…
Another sms… She again….
“ Oei, why never sms me? “ Annie sms again.
“ I’m working leh. “ I replied.
“ Oops sorry, nothing much… Suddenly miss you, don’t know why. Hahahhahaha “ She replied.
“ Eh, abit risky leh. I replied asap….
“ Why? “ Came her reply.
“ I’m afraid of falling for you. “
With that she gave me the silence treatment again.
Chapter 5: The Date
After my last sms, I think I might have gone overboard. But do I care? Her reaction is abit weird as regard to my sms. But I didn’t really know that things might turned out quite unexpectedly to the sense of me getting involved in a deep crappy situation.
Soon she sms me again asking me to go out, reluctantly I agreed and I truly regret it badly. She brought me to go shopping and I have to be her fashion adviser as if I’m really good in ladies dressing. Hahahahhaha.
Nevertheless, she really tried on a lot of clothes and kept asking for my comments. Hmm…. as a matter of fact, waiting outside the dressing room in a ladies clothing store is super duper nerve wrecking experience….
Imagine the countless pair of eyes staring at you as if you are some kind of alien intruding in the privacy space of an upper class species otherwise known as Woman.
I wish I’m an ostrich and I could dig a hole and hid my blushing face away from all the piercing eyes of the eagle eyed ladies in the department store.
But somehow it’s very interesting to see a gal changed into so many clothes and parade infront of you. Yes it may sound stupid but can’t be helped, I shouldn’t have agreed to meet her.
Alas we almost covered all the department stores in Orchard and finally had a chance to sit down and have a decent meal.
As we ate, she kept smiling at me. Curious, I gave her a blank look. She suddenly burst out in laughter and said,
“ Gosh, you really look cute when you are blur, your blur blur look is damn cute you know. “ She acclaimed excitedly
“ Don’t know, am I really that blur ? “ I enquired…
“ Yes, actually just now I’m quite touched that you are willing to spend your time waiting for me outside the changing room and subject yourself to unwanted attention and stares.” She happily revealed while enjoying her salad.
“ It’s ok, as long you are happy.” I replied non chatlantly….
With that, she blushed and happily continue feasting on her salad.
Chapter 6: The Question
As she feast on her salad, I can’t helped but keep looking at her as she ate. Startled, she ask me why I’m looking at her. But I’m not sure why.
After we had our meal, we went to Esplanade and stroll down the pathway. Suddenly she hold my hand and hug me giving me a big shock.
Time just simply stoodstill as I hold her in my arms, somehow the warmth from her body is making me feeling uneasy.
As she look up at me, I saw tears in her eyes.
“ Why are you crying? “ I asked….
“ Nothing.. “ She replied and hug me tighter.
With that, we just remained in the same position and we are ignorant of our surroundings…
Slowly she start to push me away and walk over to the railings facing the sea.
As I stood beside her, I could hear her sobbing.
As she turned and look at me, I could see that tears kept flowing down her eyes like a stream of rushing waterfall onslaught on her rosy cheeks.
Startled, I went over and gave her a tissue.
“ You think enough meh ? “ She asked inbetween her sobs…
“ Well if it’s not enough, you can have my shirt. “ I genuinely answered..
With a laugh, she dried up her tears and look at me.
“ Will you be my boyfriend?” She suddenly asked…
Chapter 7: The Bliss
Taken aback by her comment, I wasn’t sure of what to said to her and I simply nod my head. She cried and hug me again.
Guess I had feelings for her eversince I met her that day. Sounds very weird but sometimes when fate struck you, it will simply just overwhelmed you with this odd tingling feeling in your heart.
We continue to stroll around the Esplanade holding hands and chit chat all the way till it’s time to go home.
As we walk towards Marina Square to board the bus to send her home, we kept on talking about how things progressed so fast and whether is it really Destiny at work. Well, when Fate comes knocking, it’s best that you either open the door or simply ignore it till you are ready.
At that time, I wasn’t ready for a relationship as my current job doesn’t allow me to have any free time to actually go out on dates. But nevertheless I decide to give it a try.
As we board the bus, she comment that she’s feeling a little sleepy. And from Marina Square to her place, she placed her head on my shoulder as she slept throughout the journey.
The slight breathing from her remind me of how an infant sleep, like an angel resting on the clouds above and sweet melody serenade around her. Annie is the gal whom I have fallen for now.
After a short while, we reached her place and I walk her to the doorstep. After wishing her goodnight, she gave me a peck on my cheek.
“ You know something? “ Annie asked.
“ Yes? “ I enquired.
“ I’m really blessed to have you as my boyfriend.” She replied happily.
Will things turned out as well as we expected? Who knows what may lie ahead as we both embarked on a new journey together.
“ Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be condemned. “
Song of Solomon 8:7
Chapter 8: The Problems
As I thought, things don’t really end up the way I wanted. Soon after we embarked on the journey, things start to fall apart real quickly.
It all begin when she starts to go out with “ friends “ every weekends, at first I assumed it’s fairly common. But as time goes by, she’s been spending lesser time with me ever since we start going out. Slowly I realized I only met her twice a month and each time we met, 1 hour max and she said she’s tired and wanted to go home.
Who knows later she went out with her friends behind my back. I called her and she hurriedly end the call….
“ Hello, I just reached home. “ I told her…
“ I’m outside now with my friends, call you back later. “ She replied.
“ But I thought you are tired? “ I enquired.
“ No time to explain. “
That’s what she said when she suddenly end my call…
The time on my watch read 10pm. But I waited till 2am and there’s no call from her.
I finally called her and she happily answer my call, when she realized it’s me. She hung up on me again.
Frustrated, I sms her some minor warnings.
“ If your friends are more important than me, why not you go be with them and I will give you back your freedom. If I’m really that a lousy bf, just said so and I will excused myself. There’s no need to treat me like this. “
She replied,
“ Why? I can’t have fun? Who are you to restrict me? Even my parents also never do such a thing. Not happy, you don’t bother me. “
With that sms, I off my handphone and went to sleep.
Chapter 9: The Pain
The next day, I never received any calls or sms from her. Well since she opt not to contact me, then it’s fine with me.
After deliberating for 1 whole afternoon, I decided to resolved this matter as soon as possible. As it’s my off day, I was online and surfing net when I spotted her nick coming online. At that instance I’m quite pissed, she got time to go online but no time to at least give me a sms.
“ You so free ah? I shot in anger.
“ What free? I’m working now.” She replied.
“ Working still can msn? “ I asked.
“ So what? You not happy is it? Fine lor.” She shot back.
With that she went offline but I know she blocked me from her msn.
Smiling, I knew what should be the next move.
“ Since you are so busy with work and friends are so important to you. May I suggest that you just dump me can? I’m tired of everything, just dump me and go do your own things. I don’t love you anymore. Anyway, don’t treat your new boyfriend as how you treated me, it’s really unfair.”
As I wrote this message, I felt so happy. Finally a good riddance to such a problematic problem. But I was wrong, the pain that suddenly shot through my heart as I sent her the message nearly suffocated me as I felt my whole body going through a spasm of coldness. I literally freeze up as I read the “ Message sent” on my handphone.
She tried calling me but I reject her calls. No point calling me after I made my decision. Slowly her calls stopped and she never sms me. With that I got “ dumped “ just the way I wanted it to end.
But every story needs a good happy ending. Well, Annie got herself in a mess a few months after that sms and right now she’s a mother of 1. At least she found a good husband. Well that would be another story I guess.
+++ The End +++
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